Archive | October 2012

A Prayer for My Brother

My Father Who is in heaven grant him not the vitiligo disease that he envy’z so much…
but bless him instead…with enough everyday Wisdom of acceptance
so that he can learn to accept who and what he is
each day
it is such a burden for me to see him everyday
trying to look for himself
and associating his whole being with what hurts him everynight
do not get me wrong Father
i’m not saying do not offer what your other child desires
i know i’m your favourite kid
but…i feel that once he has it
he will realise that he didn’t need it
and bless him again Father as he opens
his eyes whilst i’m praying for him
thank You Father
Amen.

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A Time for Everything

There will come a time in your life when you’ll question everything. A time where you’ll question your situation, your circumstance ( why you, why not somebody next door, why now, what are you going to do, who can you call), your parents (why don’t they understand, why can’t they never have what you need, will they ever live the life they dream’t of), your mind (is it working or not), your dreams (will they ever leave dreamland and come to life), your goals (if such small goals take eternity to achieve then what is there of your dreams).

And sometime you’ll question your existence – you’ll be in deep thought wondering if you were really meant to be alive, and if you were then why is there nothing right in your life. When you’re in this phase, you’re very understanding – you understand the meaning of giving up and why people gave up. But the question you ask yourself all the time when at this stage – is the same question that you avoid asking; does God really exists? Is He really there? If he does exists then why is He doing nothing about my situation? Can’t He see that my ship is sinking? Can’t He see that my family is drowning to death?

There is a time for everything and sometimes you ask yourself questions and sometimes, well sometimes you don’t really care much, sometimes you have so much faith in you and you can see that you will go where you want to be because everything you touch is turning into gold. You deeply understand the existence of your situation, circumstance, parents, family, mind, dreams, goals and most importantly, you understand the purpose of your existence like no other.

There’s a time for everything, like this time whereby you know that God is there and you are who you are because of Him. This is what I call the Upper level of life – where everything is going up and is in your favour. The smile is irremovable from your face because everything is blooming, your life is in its spring – everything is bright.

Because there is a time for everything, a time comes whereby you don’t have the slightest clue as to what a person is talking about – this could be it! You may have never experienced what I was talking about, that is fine BUT may I tell you something; I’ve encountered everything you’ve just read!

To God

Dear God

I heard a prayer of an empty black soul yesterday;

“Maybe it’s not your fault and maybe it’s not the fault

Of my previous generations

But my lack of certain and sometimes

Important resources has made me

A slave to those who sometimes have

What I truly need.

Lack of resources has made me

A greedy and angry soul.

I try too hard to tell myself

That tomorrow will be better

But I always break-down inside

When I come into contact with tomorrow

And it is worse than yesterday.

Call me fussy but I always need the

Answers on time but

I never get them_atleast not on time.

I do not want to be an angry young

Black soul but it always reaches that point

When I see other angry, greedy young black souls.

I ask myself all the time; will tomorrow ever

Be better?

What if I die in this condition, will I ever find peace,

Maybe I do not owe it to you,

But I know I owe it to those who have

Helped nurse the infant I was to what I am now.

If I don’t get to be what I would like to be

May you please at least grant my future

Young black beings that wish of being

What they want to be”.

He was praying, and I know you heard him

Please grant him, his wishes and let him

Hold on to faith and never stop believing.

 

Regards

Me 🙂